Gosh. I feel unfaithful. I only come here t blog about unhappy events. Well, i guess my life ain't that bad since there are only four posts, including this, all in all. But any case, life's a shethole. Not just life itself, but everyone in it as well.
It's either me being awfully paranoid or just plain dumb for even letting this to drag.
I don't know what i'm feeling now. It's some boiling/weird/down/confused emotion. I get so jumpy when i know i'll get the chance to meet you but i also know that i'll go nuts and be my whole UNUSUAL-self when i do meet you. It's like we were strangers and meeting for the first time!
I feel awful. Because firstly, i don't mean to avoid you. Secondly, i am doing just it. Thirdly, i tend to look back and remind myself how this would end.
Fuck, idk what to do.
